I felt like it was a Shoozles Slumber Party!
I had a great opportunity this weekend to spend time with a group Friends, new ones and good ones I have had for quite sometime. I say opportunity, because I feel fortunate to have been invited to be with 11 ladies for 48 hours just being ourselves and giggling and enjoying each others company. Decompressing as moms need to do. I will tell you about how I am as a socializer. It's hard for me. No kidding! Oh I know, I know, people who have seen me in action probably think this is pure hogwash. But it's not. Social anxiety is something I work though each time I do an event, or even go out to have fun with people I know. It's the getting there that is hard for me. I seem fine once I get there, but always worry I won't fit in or I will say the wrong thing. It has taken a long time for me to be just okay in large groups. The judgement I pass on myself through others eyes is so harsh. Some people know this about me, now all of you know ;)
What I learned this weekend is everyone needs this kind of group friend interaction, this communing with friends. There is something magical about sharing time with friends and making new ones, we learn something new about ourselves through others even if we don't recognize it right away. I won't lie, I have a very small world that I keep very tightly closed. Just me and my husband and kids, we work and have family meals and we keep to ourselves. As I watched my beautiful, inspiring friends, I thought there is something about each of them I wish I were like, Some are strong, some are so giving, some are so funny and out going, I just soaked up that part of them. I also thought I am pretty sure they could run the country.
The other thing I saw was the great support system they are to each other. I miss out on a lot of this probably out of fear or just lack of how to help when needed. I am working on this. We never stop growing do we? :)
I want to thank them for showing this to me. Thank you beautiful friends.